Just us two

As this life goes on, it's hard to believe that your life can change so drastically. I have my set group of friends and a set way of life. Of course an amazingly supportive family too, but the first two things mentioned are about to change whether I like it or not. I am a lagger by every definition of the word. I HATE change because I like being comfortable. I like being in control because when I am in control I always know what is going to happen next, there are no surprises; which I happen to very strongly dislike as well. I don't like surprises because they take me completely out of control of the situation in which the surprise is occurring. Unfortunately, change is coming no matter what I try to do to stop it. My best friend who I have been best friends with for the majority of my life, has decided to move on even though she promises that she hasn't. Also, as I move to Riverside which is only 45 minutes away from my home, is going to rock my world. The surprises keep coming and I keep freaking out and breaking down. First surprise was that I was no longer the best friend of my best friend but I was replaced with someone who I thought was my friend but was only out to take my friendship. Second surprise hasn't even come yet, and I don't ever want it to come. I have no clue what to expect at UCR and I am so nervous because I can't fathom what will happen. I feel as if I am going to explode... but what God has so loving whispered into my ear is that he is in control and I don't have to worry about a thing. You see, God puts us in these situations of uncomfortableness and uses them to grow us. Even though I do not know how losing my best friend and being thrown into a whole new life will grow me, I can trust that God knows exactly what he is doing and that he has my best interest in mind. He loves me, cares about me, and protects me from what I cannot handle. God is good, even though there may be times when I question his goodness because I cannot see his plan, I know that the Lord will be faithful to me as I have been to him.

Party of Two

So you may be wondering, if you ever read this, what the title of this blog means. Don't fret because I am going to tell you right now. So you know when you go to a restaurant and you go up and tell them how many people are in your party? Well, I would on a usual basis say that there are 4 people in my party my mom, dad, brother, and I. As I'm moving into UCR soon and I will not be taking my family that party size changes, but it does not change to a party of one however because I will not be moving to UCR by myself. "Are you moving in with a friend?" You might ask. No, well sort of, I am moving in with the best roommate that I could ever ask for, yes I have known him for a long time. Alright I'll tell you...it's God. I will not be alone when I move into UCR because as God promises in Joshua 1:5 that "[He'll] be with [me]. [He] won't give up on [me]; [He] won"t leave [me]". So that is what the name of my blog means. If anyone ever reads this I hope that you enjoy it!